On Letting Go…

"There is a God my friend"

How far would you go to save a life if part of the responsibility was shyly tossed in your shoulder? I know it would be easy to say “everything” most especially if the one you’re saving is a beloved member of your family. However, if your capacity to help is hampered by your own needs- your own instinct to secure your circumstance first, it becomes difficult to decide to make that sacrifice…

This week was all about learning a lesson between valuing life and friendship, and letting go of sentimentalities for a while. I realized that I didn’t have to think twice. What good will my measly savings do if it would not relieve a mother’s anxious heart? What good will those pieces of jewelry be to me when it will be used to simply flaunt a shallow image?

I am not so hypocritical as to imply that money and accessories don’t mean much. I value money in the sense that I work my butt off to earn them and they become answers to making life comfortable for me and my family. While I can do without jewelries, they were given to me by someone important in my life – who also honestly and decently acquired them. They are tokens of love- and for that alone, they are valued beyond the amount of cash they represent.

Yet this week- I have to let “them” go in favor of someone whose loved-one is clinging and fighting against the terror of dengue. I’m definitely not well-off as to simply shrug off what I had shared (even as I know that they will come back ten-fold). But right now, I feel a lot better knowing that I have been given the power to prevent a mother’s heart from grieving. I have been a friend. I have shown God I am worthy of His grace and blessings.

I may not be able to indulge myself in a planned trip this month. I may miss the tangible reminders of someone’s thoughtfulness and affection and may seem like I’ve taken it for granted but the counterpoint to it is – someone out there is sleeping peacefully tonight and will be waking up with hope tomorrow because I was brave enough to let go. I have shown her that there is a God who answers prayers. (I hope she goes back to regularly attending mass after this).